mood: hot music: 'hummer' by the smashing pumpkins

jeez. it's only the first day of school and i'm already waiting on the weekend. you see, this saturday, we're playing at a party. by 'we' i'm referring to the band i belong to. nothing too special. we'll play a cover set that'll take about an hour and a half. the thing is, we were told about this gig on monday, so we're in a mad dash to clock in enough hours of practice, and with school starting up again, that's anything but a mundane task. yesterday, we locked ourselves in a room full of instruments and worked for about 5 hours straight on the setlist. today and tomorrow are tough to fit in practice, though. so we'll all have to practice alone for these two days, and that's nothing compared to practicing together.

still though, i think things are looking ok for saturday. as always, though, i've got my doubts, but not about us, per se. you see, our musical tastes are for the most part similar, but when compared to the entire group that will be in attendance, we stick out. badly. we have to pick our agenda out carefully so that we don't completely bore the entire crowd all at once.

bah, enough. otherwise, today's school day wasn't too bad. it was my first day as a senior. a 'leader of the school community'. how scary is that? one of the perks of being a leader comes in the form of extreme flexibility when it comes to school rules. at loyola high, we call it 'senioritis'. you've been accepted into a college and everything school related goes down a couple notches on the priority scale. i know it's not a good thing, but i can still feel it starting to creep up on me. hell, i know a few people who've had senioritis since their sophomore year. it seems to me that kind of behavior would lead to imminent failure in the 'crash-and-burn-in-a-giant-fireball' sort of way, but i don't think i've ever seen that happen to a loyola senior. we're apparently smart enough to have an academic buffer zone.

i was actually just talking about this with a friend of mine, also a senior. loyola is no doubt one of the oldest, highest ranked, and most influential private schools in california. that much i can understand, and i'm glad that i'm part of something so honor-worthy. but loyola seems to send out a message to it's students that's somewhat along the lines of elitism. 'you're the best of the best, so we hold a higher standard to you, and we expect a higher quality of work.' that's what they always say, more or less. but after the first couple of times, you start to build an ego. then a few months later you catch yourself bragging to your friend that 'my school is x times harder than your school!', and even though it might not be, that's what they're saying to you to boost your work standard. maybe it's not a bad thing to be so confident, but loyola is a jesuit high school. so what happened to that standard of humility st. ignatius preached?

yeah they can be pretty hypocritical sometimes. but i guess the religious standard kind of doesn't apply to loyola in this day and age, though. i don't think i can name anyone who goes there solely for the purpose of gaining religious insight. they go there because the academics and athletics that a damn good track record. in fact, i have no doubt i'm going to go to college because putting 'loyola high school' on my resume gives me such a huge head start. what i hate, though, is when they use the religious title for their own personal use. for example, at my school, detention isn't called detention at all. no, they've renamed it 'J.U.G.', which stands for 'Justice Under God'. what the hell is that? it's resonant as hell, i know, but it's not like god's going to judge me because my cell phone went off during class...

---Goei---