mood: tear-prone music: 'njosnavelin' by sigur ros

yes, i'm tear-prone. not because i'm sad or anything. it's because my eyes are on fire. figuratively, of course. my eyes are hot hot hot. my mom told me that when she came in to wake me this morning, the fan was on. i have absolutely no recollection of turning it on during the night, or it being on when i woke up this morning. in fact, i was rather cold, seeing as how my shirt was off and my blankets were tossed. kinda scary.

what really pissed me off, was when my mom started giving me a hard time for turning on the fan. no one on earth knows how she argues/scolds but me. basically she repeats two or three phrases in rotation until you think the needle's skipping. how was i to blame? i didn't even know the fan was on at all until she told me an hour ago. this is why i turn complacent around mother dearest.

well, i have a fever right now, which is probably why my eyes are scalding and i had a slight case of amnesia. i get a detached feeling whenever my head changes altitudes. half dizzy, half high. i don't like being dizzy, and i don't like being high.

otherwise i have a lot of homework tonight, especially in french. i think my french effort has gone limp. i can still participate during in class discussions, and my comprehension is among the best, but i never feel like doing 2 page essays every other week, and i definitely don't want to record practice tapes for the AP test. i've got a sneaking suspicion i'm almost failing, which isn't a very desirable position to be in. on the other hand, sometimes i couldn't care less.

today i was pressured into showing lara and simeon a track off our demo. i myself have not listened to it for a few days; i just don't like to listen to it. and it was a bit embarrassing to let those two listen in. i even had to busy myself in lids and labels. they said they liked 'simeon sam', which is named after simeon (but he doesn't know that), and that i sounded like the singer from an indonesian group called Dewa 19. i have no idea what Dewa 19 means and neither did lara or simeon. apparently it has something to do with ghosts and demigods.

---Goei---