mood: complacentmusic: 'blue flower' by mazzy star

emerging from my 3 o'clock shower, my hair is clean, my skin is smooth, and my eyes are opened once again. like a phoenix emerging from it's former self, now a mass of swirling grey liquid ashes.

newborn and curious, i wander into the living room, flip on the red-eye express and stare into its bloodshot lense. jumbled in the mass of airwaves is a solid block of unwanted emissions. i sift through and out comes the reverend al green, flashing his million dollar smile. he waves to the crowd as if he were the pope sprinkling holy water on the congregation. blessing their lives. making them holy again. he starts singing and i turn off the tv.

at an ambling pace i stroll back into my room, where the jazz plays at an erratic tempo. it's just another noisy mess waiting to be sifted through as well. but now i'm complacent with its niche, and i sit to listen to the soundtrack of l.a. lights and traffic jams. life in another language, not unlike the confusion of overseas exploration. cut to the bone, cut to the bone. the blue glow coming from the midnight ear soothes my senses and puts me to sleep.

(also, apparently, i'm fucked)

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	High
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
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---Goei---