mood: oddmusic: 'parking lot' by galaxie 500

all day, i've been thinking only of my leaving los angeles. i know it's not that far (in fact it's 45 minutes away on average), but it's still something that's been haunting my thoughts since around the 7th of september, when i realized that i only had 10 days left in town.

all day, little scenarios passed through my head. what if my roommate's an asshole? what if i can't get a job while i'm at school? who am i going to lose contact with over the years? how badly is my mom going to freak out now that i'm moving out?

and still, the only thing that floated around the entire day was a single arbitrary thought: i wonder how many people are going to cry when i close that car door and zoom off south and into orange county. i doubt anyone's actually going to cry, seeing as how a trip to irvine hardly merits a big decision, much less 'road-trip' status, but i like to imagine that i'm overly important sometimes so as to balance out the total lack of confidence i have from time to time.

i can only hope that my time left as a resident of los angeles will be as enjoyable as humanly possible. andres and i still have two norm'ses to cover before saturday. call it the last teenage hurrah, because chances are, the next hurrah we'll have, we'll be tried as adults.

at this point it sounds like i'm a convict on death row about to walk the green mile. let me stress that this isn't really that big a deal. but still, at the same time it is. i know, i know. real deep, huh?

---Goei---