mood: neutralmusic: 'everybody loves you'/'fortuna' by kaki king

i've found something inside of me. something restless. something that cannot be quieted. but what can i do? why would i do it?

immersed in descartes, i find myself with a one-track mind, and it's not descartes. and i know that doesn't make sense, but a lot of things don't right now. it's not a bad thing. definitely not. but is it a good thing? even when i'm totally excited with school, school is not important. and for no true reason.

cramped up in a corner, the lights are low and i'm dreaming of the non-existence rene descartes can only describe to me from over 400 years earlier. except, of course, in his disembodied self through that ever-so-famous line, 'i think, therefore i am.' could that apply to little old me, cooped up next to another port to the universe, livid with the fire of the information age? i think so. and therefore i am so. what else can i hold true other than the fact that i sit here, engulfed but distracted, listening to another revolution, this time of the guitar, called kaki king?

within the span of 30-second pauses between furious guitar-slapping and drifting vocal nothings, i can see what it is i'm distracted by. its voice is those non-sensical babytalk words that follow each strummed string of a jazz guitar. its face is a blue-lined canvas, empty and waiting for more scribble scrabble, more unscripted black crossouts, more loopy ink-blotted prose.

perhaps it's not so bad. or good. or neutral. maybe it just is.

---Goei---