mood: peaceful
music: 'it never entered my mind' by miles davis
the job hunt is not going well. yes, finally i've put some effort into finding myself a job and actually having money once again. the problem is that i'm not doing too well. melissa, kalie, and i went to one of the malls in irvine called 'the spectrum' last weekend and spent 1 hour collecting applications and another 2 filling them all in. melissa and kalie have struck they weight in gold, but i'm still waiting for the first callback.
i think a part of it is my unyielding persistence to apply only to jobs in this particular mall complex. also, i really want a job at a bookstore and there's only one at the spectrum. and i have no idea how to act or react to these circumstances except by being stubborn (or persistent, if you're optimistic) and wishing they'd work out the way i want them to. i know money is my main concern, but i'd like to at least enjoy as much as i can about how i earn my wage.
other than that, though, it's a fairly peaceful evening. somber without the sadness. melancholy without the despair. but somehow, it's also happy without the smile. very odd, but enjoyable.
it's what always happened before and what will happen after the calm that always bothers me. but as for right now, i can't picture anything going wrong. and that's the perfect feeling for me right now.
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