mood: captive and tragicmusic: 'hallelujah' by jeff buckley

romantic

i watched
  you as you and me as me
  and us as us as we forgot them
  graciously withered in the sand like dust sculptures in the wind
  withered like i do
  from head to toe in unblinking rays
  shivering from the crown of my head
  to the shaking soles of my feet

i watched
  as i waited to the same old song
  hated the same old dance
  messed up dressed up
  in the same old one and two
  captured in the window as a one way black and blue

i watched
  myself
  mutilated castrated
  and under no circumstances innovative
  with what my words would sadly do

i watched
  as you watched
  and saw it all unfold
  the way we never knew it would
  the way we said it never should
  because we never thought we could
  because we never thought we could

i watched
  the gleaming smiles of yesteryear
  hardened into our teeth and faces
  without a gift or a clue
  as to what it is we should never do
  it exists to make me shudder
  to think and to play through
  and there's nothing more that i want
  except to die happy
  decades away in the future of today
  knowing that for once i got through to you
  and made you smile or made you frown
  and made you think that maybe i'm not the one playing the fool
  because i never thought it would get any better
  because i never thought it could get any better
  because i never thought it should get any better
  than to lay in dreams as the one tortured
  but as the one who still never wants to leave

  singing songs romantic
  saying words romantic
  bleeding blood romantic
  softly sighing romantic

---Goei---