mood: crazedmusic: 'i hope i won't fall in love with you' by tom waits

school is ending and things have changed.

school is ending and things are still changing.

school is ending and things will change more.

school is ending and i'm afraid of change.

the workload is catching up with me this week and it'll probably get either a little better or a little worse next week with finals rolling around. i'm taking 20 units, and that's enough to get melissa's dad to cringe, but still not enough to get my dad to raise a sympathetic eyebrow in my general direction. i guess it'll take a landslide, won't it?

come june 12th, my research paper is due. my topic is ikea. my burnout index is 52. my interest level is now at 3. out of 100. my tendency to make up random statistics and numbers: 100%.

i don't worry anymore. at least not about that.

in case i hadn't mentioned it before, my philosophy course this quarter is excellent, though not without its dull moments. the other day, we concluded through sartre's existentialism that the goal of each man is to become god, or at least godlike. i discussed this with randall and he gave me a buddhist perspective. yay for learning, yay for college.

my pants don't fit anymore so i've resorted to jeans full-time. they have more holes than the shitty warm swiss cheese they'll probably have at the commons for lunch. i need to lose weight and not smoking isn't helping any. still holding strong, though. (although that doesn't mean i haven't smoked since.)

(and enjoyed it.)

---Goei---