mood: aloofmusic: 'desire lines' by lush

rainy days & sundays. it's raining so i put on 'desire lines', aka. my 'it's raining' song.

fuck, it's really coming down. a second ago i walked through it, the curtain of water, from car to car, and i was still shaking each drop loose from my hair. but something about the ride home tonight was oddly familiar. driving home from christian's apartment, steering across the empty streets.

well, the streets were even emptier tonight since every street, head, and traffic light reflection blended the lane lines into a ubiquitous lake of shiny doom. and the music was loud and the night was over and i was numb.

i don't mean physically numb or even emotionally numb. i could think and function as normally as i ever do. it was just that i felt like i was just a fixture of the universe. a non-objective one, though, because i could feel & think. i just felt like the best way to feel was cataplexic and fully-poseable.

and so the 'it's raining' song ambled on (slow, as if it were raining or something) and my night's fate was sealed with another dash to the front door.

i can feel the holidays coming in that starbucks-red-cup, n-sync-christmas-cd kind of way, and coming from me, i don't think that's a good thing.

---Goei---