mood: ok music: 'the whole of the law' by yo la tengo

there's no way i'm gonna sleep easy tonite. i just can't. no reason, though. i'm simply not tired.

today i went to the more local record store to finally buy a cd i've been jonesing for for weeks now: mazzy star's 'So Tonight That I Might See'. that 30 second clip of 'fade into you' on allmusic.com just isn't cutting it anymore. sadly, soundsations in westchester repeated history for me; they managed to refuse to buy any of my old cds, just as amoeba did last week. *sigh* oh well, shit happens.

funny, that's what steve jarl said last week when we collided automobiles and effectively brought my mood crashing down in a fiery ball of doom.

i think i'm just going to bring in those cds again and show them to a different guy and see if he offers me at least enough to buy one album. there has to be enough in there. we're talking about 2 dozen cds here, people! there has to be something desired in that overly large-sized pile of unwantedness!!!

tomorrow, i've got to finish my UC essay. for real now. i've finished the 600-word question already, so the rest should be lemon squeezy.

as for last week, it was just as bad as i expected. i was up to my nipples in work. my research paper turned out well, though, despite the fact that it took me until 5am to make it sound not retarded. after finishing, i felt accomplished as i can now tell you everything you want to know about poe's use of the single effect in The Cask Of Amontillado.

i still have to ask 3 teachers for recommendations, but i feel so weird doing it right in the middle of the holiday season and with senior finals only 2 weeks away. those aren't due until january 15th for me, though, so i should be ok. i think i'll ask my english teacher for one or two. despite the fact that i had a glaring B- at mid-semester, she's read two of my papers out loud in class because they displayed "such good writing," as she put it. then maybe oceanography, which i've had an A+ in from the start of the year. it's such an easy class, but i'm in the class that doesn't care; the class average is currently 77%, which is sad, because that's with my outlier grade bringing the average up. don't mind me, i just feel like being a conceited bastard when it comes to this class. it's not often i get to do that, you know.

it's cold here. i love that.

---Goei---