mood: warmer music: 'autumn sweater' by yo la tengo

hot showers always seem to make me feel better. but it seems like they bring me to the same level of security everytime, so i've got to be careful not to take one when i'm feeling ecstatic, because that'll just bring me down to that level. don't tug on superman's cape, right?

then i was thinking: i'm of indonesian and chinese descent, which means by law of stereotypes that i should have a darker skin tone in order to cope with hotter temperatures, especially the indonesian aspect of me. but i, on the other hand, have managed to be pale and a cold temperature enthusiast. in more candid family photos, i look like i don't belong to the same family.

well that just got me thinking more about why i love the cold so much. i figure, i love the cold only because it serves as a character foil of sorts for warmth. the cold, for me, is like the ice water you drink right before sipping an espresso. to heighten the strong, bitter flavor of the espresso, you clear your palate with the polar opposite: something bland and light. in other words, i love the cold because it lets me love warmth more than usually. that's why the demand for midnight showers shoots up in the wintertime at my house. also i like to wear heavy coats, but that's pretty irrelevant to the metaphor.

oh, and i forgot to mention that my dad left tonight for indonesia and will be gone for a little over 2 weeks. my mom leaves tomorrow night, for some reason, and that will leave me to fend for myself in the concrete jungle for a fortnight. my toughest challenge: learning to wake up by myself in the morning for community service. i've already installed 3 alarm clocks on my nightstand to conduct a mechanical symphony at dawn. hopefully, that's enough.

lastly, i finally posted one of the knott's photos at the bottom of this post. i'll probably do them one by one like this as a result of laziness.

---Goei---

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andres and kristy either butting heads or about to kiss, i don't remember. taken in line for some ride at knott's berry farm.