mood: weak music: 'shaking hell' by sonic youth

ok, i haven't been feverish for at least 36 hours, but the most random thoughts and dreams come to my mind.

sometime last night, i dreamt i was the best friend of a little girl named mackenzie. we were both somewhere in grade school. the setting was like a bizarro st. jerome school, where i went to grade school. i'd actually seen this setting before in several previous dreams, so it wasn't too much of a surprise for me. in the dream, mackenzie and i were behind the school's church running around for no apparent reason, when all of a sudden, she stops with a worried look on her face. i ask what's wrong, and she pulls out a syringe of ethanol and injects it upwards underneath the bend in her jaw. she fell limp as i watched and screamed. after trying to wake her up, i grabbed the syringe and ran to the main office. i kept trying to say what happened but i was just stammering nonsensical phrases. by the time i led everyone to her, she was gone. all that was left was a pillar with her name and a whole bunch of pictures of her on it. a few steps away from that was an outdoor grill where they were selling mexican food.

creepy and morbid, huh?

---Goei---