mood: plumpmusic: 'risingson' by massive attack

things here are starting to get more interesting. there still seems to be infinitely more to learn here.

i don't know why, but last night i went to a dance they held here. i didn't really plan to dance, so it was kind of pointless for me to go at all. sure enough, the people that recognized me there teamed up on me and forced me to dance. after 3 hours of constant and awkward body movement, we returned to the first floor common room to play 'ten fingers'. some of you might know of the drinking game version of this. you say something like 'i have never had more than 6 cups of coffee in one day' and in the case of that statement, i would probably be the only one to put down a finger. it's basically an icebreaker, and you get to learn lots of interesting facts about your dormmates. i ended the game with -8 fingers.

anyway, we played a couple more games until about 3AM then everyone went back to their rooms. everything seems good here, but there's still one thing bugging me, and it's bugging me how selfish it's going to sound coming out of my mouth.

with the little internet access time i have here, i surf around everywhere as fast as i can. and there's one thing that's definitely the same: everything. as different as i feel over here, there's no trace of my departure as of yet on the internet. i don't know why that makes me feel even more alienated, but the feeling creeped up on me slowly as i tried to sleep last night. perhaps it's just because it's a bigger deal to me since i'm living it. maybe it's because i'm not really that far away. or everyone hates me. i'm just kidding about that last one. (i hope...)

---Goei---